new, contest, weight loss.

Is it too early? To be looking  at what's out there? Is it? Is it evil or bad on me to go in in search of what's out there and accidently bump into something new? Something I might have interest in, in the future? I have yet to know. I don't want to jump into it. I just want to let it flow through and so far, it's flowing just right. But I mean come on? Jumping from a 3.5 year relationship into something new, isn't what I want. I want to see. Bah. Contradicting nonsense. 

I feel giddy when he texts, I laugh at his randomness (almost a match to mines' ), I have that feeling that TEEHEEHEE, haven't had that in a while. Gots me thinking in the right way. BUT look he's new, NEW, and I'm feeling kinda gah. . do I even make any sense? *shrugs I don't know how I feel about all this. 

My work's xmas party is this coming sunday. I got drink tickets this year! (; I can't handle shit so I guess he can have those. IF he goes. GAH. I think I'll do L's contest this saturday too! Might as well, won't be as nice as the other ladies but whatever. My first contest and it'll just be fun to be apart of the infamous "FlyMamaL " contest. teehee. . I am done with school for the semester. And will NOT be taking a winter course being that the funds have been cut and there's no classes to really take. DAMN YOU CALIFORNIA. It's about us STUDENTS. Showing no love, bah! 

Since I am not taking a course, I've also decided to well work out. I want to lose 10-15 lbs. and keep it off by summer. Yes, I'm already thinking about summer. As much as I despise it, I will flaunt what I got oceanside. ( And if I am slim enough, I will get my tattoo that I  have been wanting since forever. I want both sides of my ribs done. This is what I'm "assuming" that I will get. Since I am a pussy ass bitch when it comes to NEEDLES. ) LOL. I think I will lose 6 lbs for the 6 wks off of school, that I have for my birthday. Good ol' uh birthday gift to me, I guess. Be slimmer for my 21st.