tomorrow.

tomorrow is another day, love.

tomorrow is the day when my life starts anew.

tomorrow is the day that i am once again, alone in this world. 

today however is for our bittersweet goodbyes.

today is the day where i stand strong.

today is where i put our love story in a box in side my heart. 

3 years 3 months of our love story. . and every story has it's end. 

NASTY, CRUSTY SHITZ

Oh. . yeah you heard me?
I'm thankful. .
For my family, first off.
They are the ones that supports me always. Even though I'm the biggest brat eva-ers! The family has been there for me. I love them.
For the Lover.
Robbed and rocked the cradle. Kidnapped me and dragged me off to be throwed into a fairytale. Him being my prince w/ a blue horse. . make that 600 something horses. Then we lead a happy life for a whiles, him supporting me and being as there as much as he could. Driving back and forth since I didn't have a car, at the times. Putting fifty million miles on his beloved car. Actually our Beloved Child. Though times did get rough then and times are even rougher now. We're both stubborn and very hardheadded. One day, we'll get out of this mess and say, "Look it was the dark ages!" He's my other half. He has the key to my heart and I have the lock to his cock. Ha. I love him.
Bloggers.
You guys totally inspire me. I can never pull those hot looks like you guys but I will always try it outs. You guys rock and keep on rocking! (:

Holy Hells.

So the See by Chloe DayTripper bag is now on sales.
It is downs to 480$ from 650$, holy hells! 40% offz.
I'm kinda iffy on it cause I still want that Marc by Marc Jacobs bag, which is about 430$ dollars and it would do it some good if it was 40% off. Then I could really say "Screw you! Black Friday!" and just spurge on my bag!
I want a bag to store my school books, reading books, and magazines. My fifty million pencils & pens. A good bag that I can haul around without feeling like, "Man, this is such a school bag!" A good everyday bags. Woot!
So as I was typing this my dog comes running through the sliding door that my sister opened and comes up and licks my hands and arms. She's such a cutie pie! <3 her!
Holiday season is here and there's so much to do. I'm still debating on what to buy or get everyone. It's like so crazy. I'm not quite sure on what to get them alls. Lol. Oh wells.
I'm going to try to stay away from buying any make up or hair products, I think I should have enough to last me a long long whiles. PLUS PLUS!! .. I'm waiting for the Hello Kitty collection. (;
I have like a long pile of bills to pay too, eek! Stupid CC bills.

bam bam boom!

Speeches due next week.
A fatty, greasy turkey/chicken day.
Long/short weekend.
Holidays coming up.
Too small paycheck.
Epic failure relationship.

i am.

hurt

abused

tired

scared

disappointed

lost

confused

sad

EMO BITCH. bah.

EMO-LICIOUS. RAMBLES&RANT OF HIM. . . 

Things will never be solved . . when one does not listen or understand what your trying to say. I wanted to stay, to be there, to be waiting while he got his shit together. I've been willing to sit there and wait 'til he was ready or even had time leftover for me. I'm hurt and he just doesn't understand. .3.5 years and he doesn't understand me, nor will he ever will. I'm doubting that he's even trying to understand it all. I know work is hard, family is tough and I might be the one, that is causing even more troubles.  . so I guess it may be the best. . I just don't know. We've been through this like fifty million times over the last year.  On and off, On and off, On and off, right now . . or then . . was complete limbo-ness. We weren't together or apart but not seeing anyone . . or that's what I was hoping. I'm not sure what tomorrow will be or what will be of today. . what i do know is that I still do love him .. and maybe a piece of be will always be with him. . 

FATTY TITTAYS.

I'm so full right now. Urgh. Barf*

An order of 20 wings, breaded/naked and an order of cheesy curly fries.

All from the very honorable Hooters. 

Service was a bit slow, being that I did call them after I left work to pick up my sister. They told me 10 minutes and when I came there, I still had to wait another 5-10 'til my order was done. I'm glad the wings were like good. It's really a hit and miss at the location that I go to. . The chicken was good and crispy .. no more drippy oils all over the chicken. Yum! 

I actually drank an "Arnold Palmer" w/ 7-up, my only soda in a few days. I'm so proud that I've cut my soda. I need to somewhat cut it completely . . well not really. I think so far, I'm doing pretty well. Not drinking two cans per lunch/dinner time. . like it's half or less and drink the other half the next day or so. LOL. 

Okay, enough about my fatty ways even if I'm in love with it all. 

Food is my hero. 

Okay, so problems with Lover. 

3.5 years yet I do not know. I guess, it does have to do with his really late hours. My schooling and work. We do not see each other at all. I think, we see each other like 6-7 hrs a week. Yeah, it's that bad or sometimes not at all. Stresses me cause he doesn't call or tell me that he's working late or anything. Expects me to call him when I get off work but doesn't even pick up. Not fair, at all.  Bah. Rambles and Rambles. Limbo is where we're at, limbo is probably where we stay. 

So I currently smell like korean bbq. Dad came home after a million hours of traffic due to the wildfires and it's really close to homes. He had to go in a very large circle just to get homes. We decided to go eat at a buffet, chinese was kinda boring so we thought might as well go eat korean bbq, haven't had a going out dinner with the fam bams in a while, pretty fun. 

It brighten up my very slow saturday. I have been in bed for the majority of the day. . being bitter about how retard lover is acting, haha.

Very stupid short blog. . I'm tired.

Debating on the bags, I'm sure I'm going to get the Marc by Marc one. More pockets for my millions and millions of books. 

smilez, gigglez and laughter.

Coach Madison collection "Sabrina" 358$

See By Chloe "Daytripper" 695$

Marc By Marc Jacobs "Strippy Zippy Groovee Satchel " 498$

Here's my list of purses that I really, really want. Maybe I can hint and hint some more to the lover. . actually no, i'll wait and wait til i have save enough. . and pay off bills all at the same time. During this weekend is when there's tons of sales, I have a coupon for Coach 25% off, both Marc & Chloe bags are on sale at nordstroms and bloomingdale's.

watching Oprah.
Yes, her. I'm addicted. When I go to Chicago to explore .. cause Lover was born there so then I want to go, to visit Oprah & then of course Jerry Springer! I can't get enough of those wannabee'z hillabillys. Love it!
Currently eatting pumkin soup. . . no, we didn't steal the neighbor's old halloween craved pumkins. haha. . lame joke. Anyways it's especially good when the weather is super cold.
Note as I type away on the computer, my lovely little pup dog is laying outside the door. She's so adorable. Always there when I'm typing away on the computer. I think she would be a wonderful inside dog, but my parents totally disagree. . with her fur, hair and dirtz. Poor dog. Love her, though. I've only had her for a year too, totally awesomez.
I will post pictures of her, soon! She just won't stay still and thinks when I call her that I want her to come to me. Lol. She BARELY listens to "stay".

deep fryer!

First charm bracelet ever! Pink, chunky and really girly.

I love deep fryers.
I love making home made french fries.
I love deep frying spam.
I love my deep fried chicken too, oh man. Roscoe's, baby!

Okay, I'm a fatass and I love it. I'm pretty sure that I have mentioned that like several times. I really do love foods, all kinds. So if you know of any cool foods to try, please tell me.

I'm currently debating if I should buy the Coach "Sabrina" bag from the Madison collection for the total of 358$, this does not include the 25% off coupon that I just received from them. Hmms. . Lover actually likes it and it's not that flashy meaning that I can use it for travel too, if it's really big enough. Still debating. . really still debating.

I'm on Twitter now. It's like how I constantly change my statuses on FB & MS anyways. (:

sweet melodies.

K-Ci & Jo Jo; all my life.

Damn. I love those old songs, I think I have an old cd from Lover somewhere and it has the best love songs on it. Reminds me of good times. Meaning, I need to dig through my crap and find it.

So my latest artsy crafty thing is well bracelets and charms. I want to make those chunky ones like Betsy Johnson and sell them for a million dollars. I kid, but I'm still trying to find beads and charms that I like and decide on how I'll make them. Fun. 

Tomorrow is friday and I would like to say that DAMN this week went by really fast. Weekend is here meaning I will get to see Lover and hopefully do something fun.

it's our anniversary. .

"do you know what today is
do you know what today is
it's our anniversary {it's our,it's our special day}
anniversary
do you know what today is
it's our anniversary made for you and me. ."
Tony Toni Tone - It's Our Anniversary.

So that song was playing when I woke up from one of my several naps today. It is our anniversary. And I've been sitting at home all day. Eating my chicken salad, which is the best ever! But my sister ate all my leftovers. Lol. My puppy..okay, she's not a puppy but this HUGE wolf animal of a creature killed two little mouses, says my sister. Wow. Okay, so after about seven, yes seven long hours of waiting for lover to get his bank crap fixed. He finally picked me up, headed to Downtown Disney. We watched "The Changeling" with Angelina Jolie in it. . yes, the good 2.45 hr movie. He didn't fall asleep, I'm so proud. 

I thought it was a somewhat good movie. Very sad that she never found her son. There was parts that made me want to cry and I did hold his hand throughout the whole thing. So sad, though. 

We ate at the House of Blues, which was decent. Since we've never been there before the music was super loud and I think I lost some of my hearing just from the restaurant. Not sure what band was there but they were a headbangers! I'll tell you that much. 

Hopefully tomorrow will be better being that we have a list that we would like to get over with and finally eat at "Garlic Joe's" which we've been wanting to try for the last 2 years, I believe.