shin kicking fun.

I had a very failure of an attempt to run 2 miles. What can I say, I'm fucken lazy as shit. All I know is that I semi-attempted it, right?

I got a pair of  Doc Martens 8 eyelet boots in black. I did twit this. I'm not sure what to really wear with them. Someone help a girl out. I'm thinking pairing them with skinny jeans and some loose fem fem top. 

 I brought them at Journey's for full price and everything. I'm like debating if I should go get this one that I found on craigslist, might as well right? It's way cheaper and I'll bring Bestie with me. Who the hell would mess with me thens, rofl. [: Or if I'm REAL damn lucky, I'll find a legit pair at Buffalo Exchange or some thrift store. Cause I think they'll look way better all worn in  and beat up, I just don't know why I would think so either. 

TMO boy, think your cute. Talk to me mores. [;

Boy's birthday this weekend. BBQ is what he's doing. Meaning I have to go there after work. My work clothes is so hoochie it's kinda hilarious. We'll see what I'll be wearing to his birthday. LOL. 

Robin Thicke makes me melt. [ random fact ]

This is the most random-est blog, I've wrote. maybe

update.

"fuck me long and hard

make me scream from it all . ."

okay, hello. I'm back, not even sure when was the last time I posted. Boy is back. [ makes me want to start singing, " my boyfriend back and you're going to get into trouble . . " ]  I'm sure I posted about that on twitter. Not that he is my boyfriend. rolls eyes* I've come to realize that I like them quirky guys, them nerds cause that would make me feel more comfortable. I don't want a hard ass, I want a funny ass. I want someone to can keep a smile on my face. But I don't like pansy asses, who aren't real men either. I want someone, who likes the same interest like me or almost the same interests. I know it's hard and I can't just go looking for this guy or else he'll never happen. We'll always bump into each other but never know what's really there. That's just how life is. 

-Boy is my "OH BABY! YUM! " kinda boy currently.

-D Sum is my "COULDBEMYBOYFRIENDBUTUHNO " kinda boy currently.

-30 is well "thirtysoontobethirtyone " and that doesn't fit into what I need for me. 

I'm not trying to jump back into a relationship but I want to be in a semi-relationship where things will actually be happening. Boy needs to step up something to show that he can even handle a relationship or at least somewhat act like we're even together. D Sum is sweet but some things aren't going there either. 

T-MO boy. Just "Hi" for now. 

I've eaten "Boiling Crab" for the last 3 weeks and I'll probably end up eating there again like this coming weekend. I like it and it's fun. . probably eat it at home this time cause I know my mom has been craving some. 

nekkid make up. That is what has become of me. I wear like "shroom" all over underneath "bare study " and just line my eyes with "blacktrack" and lots of mascara, I'm too lazy to put on them lashes. I wear "Darkness" which is similar to "Shisem" but Idurnoe, I think I might need thicker ones cause them Darkness ones don't even do anything for me. My face consist of Laura Mercier Tint Moist. in "Nude".  Laura Mercier concealer too in #2, I believe. And to set it, I use that MSF from MAC in some really light color, I actually smashed it after a week that I got it and now it's like a broken powdery base. LOL. 

oOohwee!

Thanks P for giving me an award! [; 

10 things about me, first..wait honest shit too? [ sorry for the profanity, it's 1 am & I just don't give a flying fuck.. ]

10. I am a fucken NERD, at heart. . but I hate school. 

9. I'm pretty clumsy as shit. . I once tripped over a fucken grape. I slipped, it didn't even squish. WTF?!

8. I do not like "pho" and yes, I'm Viet. Now take that and stick it up your WAH?!*

7. I have two tattoos on my wrists. My next one is either my right hip bone or start on my left rib which is going to be a phoenix with orchids. I will fucken die due to the pain and the pricing. Tats are so expensive. ]:

6. My best friends are guys. Girls are shady and I like to stay away from them. Period. I have 1 or 2 real best girl friends. 

5. I'm pretty down for what I believe in. I would kick your ass if I really wanted to. . so don't fucken give me the "stink eye" and think i'll be okay with it. Kthnx bye! [:

4. I spend way too much. I need to stop and start saving for a car or something good. Need to pay off these CC's before it kills me.

3. My favorite colors is red, black, white & grey. Yeah and what? Go DIAF!

2. Haven't been single this long since my junior year of high school, I'm so fucken proud of myself. But that don't mean I ain't getting my fair share of loving from Boy. . fck he's good. ROFL. Wait, did I just say that? Oh I did.. *shrugs I ain't lying. 

1. I've never dyed my hair, ever. I have legit baby hair. 

7 girls that I catch myself waiting for their next post. 

7.  Mimi.

6. TinaMarie.

5. Lady L.

4. Jane.

3. Spanks.

2. NuNuDoll.

1. Absolutely Oblivious.

watermelons&more.

Spur of the moment kinda stuff. Went to Disney's California's Adventure for about 3 and half hours or so. Got free tickets so don't trip, rofl. Fun. Fun. Need $$ for a annual pass but we'll see. Oh so for some reason D sum looked fcken good today, even my Bi Lover said so. It was like the fck? Weird. It's not everyday that he looks good just some days. Like he's cute but still not like Boy kinda cute, sorta shit. I don't know. .*Swooosh goes Shara & her explanation of shit. LOL.

I'm wearing a teal colored top and thought, what the hay and did a green/teal look to go with it. I'm sorry the pictures are kinda retarded but it's the best ones that I took today that you can tell the colors. [ I will promise to redo it again & show better pictures. ] 

EYES; 

MAC Paint pot [ Bare study ] all over. 

I wanted a shimmery base vs "Painterly"

MAC e/s [ Shroom ] a light shimmer base color .. 

Might not be this one but will check tomorrows.

MAC e/s [ Kelly ] on the outer corner.  Teal. Mermaid like.

I believe this one is a PRO color.

MAC e/s [ Bio Green] on the inner corner. Shimmery green. Bright & very pigmented.

PRO color. Took me a while to hunt this one down and I still I've only used it twice in the last year that I've gotten it. WTF?! 

MAC fluidline [ black track ]

 

questions.

-This time last year, who did you like?
Cristopher, duh.
-Last night, who was the last person to text you?
Viv, I believe? Or D sum.
-Has anyone ever stripped for you?
Nope, would you like to?
-what school does the last person you have kissed go to?
Cypress.
-Who do you blame for your bad mood today?
Cheap ass customers. 
-What was the first thing you did this morning?
Woke up, rolled over, reached for my phone, knocked the fck out again & dreamt of military boy/D sum & sex.. hmms sex.
-Do you care of what people think of you?
Strangers? No.
-Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Viv&Jezeka
-Last person you went to the movies with?
30; Watchmen
-What are you looking forward to right now?
Cousin's wedding in April & Spring Break.
-What did you do today?
Work&Del Taco.
-Where will you be 12 hours from now?
In class, I hope.
-Name something you are doing tomorow?
Class and lunch, I hope. 
-Can you whistle?
Yes.
-Do you sleep on your stomach?
Nope.
-What are you wearing?
A dress.
-Are you a mean person?
LOL. A bitch sometimes..
Are you jealous of anyone?
Nope, not right now?
-Are you ticklish?
Yes.
-What is your nickname?
I got a lot of nicknames./end.
-Favorite color?
Black, white, red & grey.
-Anything exciting happening this weekend?
I hope, I'll do something cool.
-What are you waiting for?
To go jump Boy's pants..wait, no. 
-Getting your hair cut anytime soon?
No.
-Will you be single this coming Valentines?
We'll see. Only time will tell.
-Do you have any gay/bi friends?
Rofl. Yes.
-How old will you be this year?
Twenty one.
-Last cd you listened to?
Not sure.
-Honestly, has anyone ever seen you in your underwear?
Yes?
-Do you believe in young love?
Yes. Sweet innocent love.
-Who was the last person who called you unexpectedly?
Uh D sum? Maybe.
-Who do you have texts from in your inbox right now?
The last one would be from D Sum.
-Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
Nopes.
-Do you regret something you did yesterday?
Not really.
-Have you ever been in a wedding?
Yes.
-Anything you would change about your life right now?
Change the fact that I'm totally horrible when it comes down to schooling.
-Do you know anyone named Matt?
I believe so.
-What color is your hair?
Black.
-When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?
15 mins ago.
-Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
Asian straight.
-Do you have a best friend?
Uh huh.
-Is the sun shining?
Nope, well I hope not at 10:20pm.
-Is there a member of the opposite sex that you tell everything to?
Lol. Kinda.
-Are you tired right now?
Yes.
-Are you dating the very last person you kissed?
Not dating, seeing. Rofl.
-Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
3.5 years.
-Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes.
-Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
I hope not.

ttthirty dates.

OKAY.

So I don't believe . . I got any pictures of my "FOTD" but I will find some. [ found them. ] I basically did NARS make up.  I'm just going to list it, real easy. If my newbie ass can do it, you can do it too! [:

mac "painterly" paintpot.

nars  "fathom" in the inner corner. [ light light shimmer pink ]

mac "sushi flower" on top of "fathom" cause I thought it was too light. [ bright pink ]

nars "pandora" but just the black for my outer corner/creases. [black, kinda over blended and it turns grey/smokey. ] 

I also used the white in the "pandora" set as my highlighter. 

mac "black track " fluidline. 

falsies #46 from Red Cherry. [ 2$ a pair is way better to lose then others.  ]

Yes, I got a big ass shoulder. ROFL. Better then nothing, girls. 

Outfit way too tone down then what I would wear to work. Nothing special there. So the date well I guess it was a bit awkward but not too much. We are coworkers so I do see him uh 4 days out of the week already and work already thinks that we are going out or something, you wouldn't think that a workplace that is 95% male would be so much shit talking and rumors but there is. We were to Irvine Rectrum, rofl.. for the IMAX show cause he thought it would be so much cooler to watch "WATCHMEN" in IMAX. I don't mind. It was utterly packed and that was kinda annoying already and it doesn't help with assholes kick your damn chair either. [ I had no real interest in the movie nor did the sex scenes help either.. ]  BUT BUT .. what matter the most to me was DENNY from GREY's Anatomy/The Comedian/DAD from Supernatural. . Oh fuck me.  I'm a sucker for old men apparently. . But still. . mms

Continue about the date, so we ate at Chammps at Irvine Rectrum, uh oh shits me that there was a UFC fight going on today cause ANYTHING that has to do with UFC reminds me of well BOY, hmms Boy. . that later. So being that 30 is really sweet about how things are between us, I feel kinda bad for the guy. He knows kinda of the others  doesn't over look it but knows that hells there's young kids that are closer to my age that are after me too, rofl. I laugh at when we were walking and talking around Rectrum as we waited to go in and going anywhere with him makes me feel short as fck, there's a foot difference between us. . meaning I know my height limits now, which is like 5'10" ish. . but I haven't gotten anyone that tall, yet.  Uh back to the story.. he kissed me, cause last time on another adventure .. he wasn't too sure on what the hell I wanted so yeah. It felt so high school-ish and cute and my ass, I fcken giggled like no other. My Bi Lover, when I told her was like oh lordy being that she already knows what's up. 

I guess that's my date in a rut?! Nothing more then that, I guess. 

Headed to Tan Cang Newport restaurant and got leftovers-ish. I had to be there cause it was to "celebrate" my mom's birthday from thursday, uhms yeah. Not too interesting there, I believe I got uh the lobster eggs nothing more then that from the lobster dish. Epic failurez. 

BOY;

I liiike Boy. Apparently Boy liiikes me enough to changed this aspect of our relationship. I hate that well we don't see each other at all, weekend nights only, which is stupid being that I'm sure I can come over when he doesn't have class. Plus he didn't text me for about 2 weeks after our desert trip, shit I don't believe I even get phone calls no more. That's another issue for another day. Texting cause he thought I should be the one to start the conversations, not him or both ways. So we're semi-back to texting nonstop again. And today/yesterday he actually wanted to have dinner with me, but I had mom's thing so I headed over there afterwards. 

"i like boy to pretty much sum all it up.. " 

D SUM;

Ex military boy. Letting this one just flow again, not quite sure what I want from it or what he wants. We're in that friendly stage-ish. Very odd. 

It's 3:47am, due to the time change so now I will go KTFO but leave you with this bag. Should I? with 30% off, baby! Probably in this color or black. Wallet?! No, cause I have my Marc by Marc Purple one, so yeah. 

to the north pole.

My bestie thinks I'm a bit Bi Polar. The reason for that is because for the last week and a half, I've been feeling really shitty. And I know that in a few days it'll go away or it has before. I just don't know. . I am currently bored with all boys, which in turn is really bad. I liiike Boy. My Bi Lover says he just needs to step up his game, change it up a bit or else. . my ass will kick his ass good bye. Which will probably be how it ends as of right now. I don't mind the freedom that he gives me, wait no that we give each other but give me too much and I'll fcken fly. BAH.

So me and my mom aren't really talking and when she does, she's basically just bitching at me. Blah blah blah.. nonsense that I do not want to deal with at all. Not right now. It's just another rough point in our relationship, I guess. 

I am currently going to pay my bills and save for the Coach Madison bag. I do have a 30% off thing from their lawsuit. I believe I'll just get the bag, no need for the wallet since I have a Marc by Marc Jacobs wallet that I still love, so we'll see. I believe I can get it within 3 paychecks. That's well my goal anyways, so that's about a month & a half. 

" a bird with a broken wing.. " 

I believe that the girl inside me, the young, quiet, soft spoken one is had enough of all the bullshits and just want to breath easy  . .